Our mind deceives us, our heart bears along the pain for it. Our thoughts vary from our actions. Ever wondered why this happens? Ever felt the pain being on the other side of the break up line that you might have ever told a girl? Questions like this are difficult to answer and our mind avoids them, whereas our heart thinks about them. Our mind is very adaptive, it trains itself on the questions we like answered and the once we don’t like answered.
I always thought, break-ups were not that a great deal and like us (guys) even the girls would understand it someday and learn to move over it quickly. Like after a break-up a guy usually hardly waits a day or two to go around with someone else. Sometimes to the extent of romancing another girl before breaking off with the current one. Like we do at our jobs, secure another job before quitting the current one. Well, I thought things would be simple and easy, just say the harsh words, “I want a break-off”, if you really want to sound harsh. Else, “I think our relationship is going nowhere, lets just call it off”, if you want to sound thoughtfully harsh. Or “I think we should take a break for some days” if you want to sound temporarily harsh, you leave a room for re-approach in this one. Things would be easy I thought when I used one of these lines when i was nineteen to my first ever girlfriend of two years. It kind of worked for me, I was free to romance any girl i wanted to. Never did I think of the person at the other end receiving this line. I learnt this many years later when i accidentally bumped into that person, that she still loved me and was always waiting for me to give her a reason for the break-up. I had never thought about it that way, I had a lump in my throat, all I could muster was a Sorry and walk away.
Still, my mind played the trick on me and I started using the lines more frequently, every time I mocked up the lines I felt a pang somewhere, but it soon vanished the next day with a damsel’s arm wrapped around mine. There still our times when our heart wins over our mind and reminds us of all the devilish things we had done in the past, but to make our evil mind loose the battle, we have to intoxicate it and let our heart take over. I never wanted to break up with anyone but I always did. I always thought that she was the one for me, but my actions spoke differently.
Ever wondered why our thoughts are of a saint, and actions that of a devil? Our mind always bullies our heart. Let it loose someday, let the heart win! Life will be much easier then. Its much easier said than done, and not always is the heart right. But try to go with the heart someday, wrong it may be, you will envied for following it. Let it go on its course, take decisions for you, judge for you, reason for you, think for you. Just for a day, your life would be different.
Then your thoughts would be of a saint and actions of your heart!
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